dear parsley,
I haven't told someone so much about daddy before.
Somehow, today I just couldn't stop.
And I really miss nice talks like that,
especially during exam periods.
It was a great afternoon, thanks!
It's been really nice with you around.
(:

love,
jia

Labels: friends, happy

Graphic Design Presentation
"the external critics were suprised that you have such strong ideas and they couldn't believe you just transfered major!"

(: worthed my 3 days of sleepless nights.
Will sleep today. I will sleep 12 hours today!
But there's this little sting that astrid's not happy with my non-environmental-friendly idea.
Will improve. You'll be impressed.
*grins*

Labels: adm, happy, school, vis comm

On my birthday,
I was the happiest girl on the earth.

8:30
Yet I'm working despite it was my birthday.
Jon came 5 minutes before I was about to leave and gave me a jar of hello pandas
(He remembers (: )
and...
OMG this huge half-a metre elmo with cheesy smile and oversized pants.
It was so cute I couldn't resist.
I've stopped being fond of soft toys
but that red fuzzy thing made me smile from inside
and I genuinely forget everything else at that point of time.


12:30
Met Jerms for lunch cause he volunteered to make lunch for me
He's such a good cook
and OMG he's so good at acting!
(tbc later in the later part of the entry)



4:00pm
Met Hessie for Dinner Dinner.
She wanted to go JP for lunch cause school's food's kinda boring.
So we went bentobox for dinner
and as drama queen as ever,
she wanted to get movie tickets and dinner when she only has 6SGD in her wallet
-______-'''
bwahahahaa.
Jan popped out from nowhere later with a little cake (and no lighter)
So i kinda 'pretended' this actually is light
when i pose to 'blow' the flame.



6:30pm
was rebellious
I, urms, skipped french.
And apparently I think I'm not allowed to retake the quiz now.

8pm.
I was supposed to meet karelin for dinner in school.
I mean, it's late ya lor..
so I was quite surprise when she looked for me with xm, ridz, ruyi, hafi and jeannie.
And we're going out for dinner instead! xm's driving.
I went to the locker and happen to meet jerms there.
he was looking for his camera, after which,
they led me to the lift to the basement
to the door....
oh wait.... this way is not the way to the carpark!
then...
i realised...
outside the glass doors,
beside the fountains...
there's few people frantically preparing so stuff which looks like food. (it's dark it's dark)
then i realise..
oh wait....
I know these people.
Yingherng, ken, qing, lixian, yifang, kimsiang
I naturally exclaimed
"heys! what are you guys doing here?"
.
.
.
.
..
...
Yes, apparently.
Yes, there's a party.
BBQ, loads of people I love
The animation people I love so much
Yes, and yes,
apparently it's my surprise birthday party.
like.. OH MY GAWD.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
omg omg.

----

You know, i planned out my 21st, to be this boring and plain day.
And this this this..
I've never never thought of.
More people came..
Bernard, yizhi, peiling, hanzhi...



And thankyous thankyous thankyous
I couldn't be more grateful
I'm so loved I'm so loved.
I'm floatinggggggggggggg
Gosh I really miss animation.
I miss overnights in school
I miss you guys.

Thankyou Thankyou
Thankyou seems to be much lesser than than I want to express.
LOL. and yes i regret I did not stay till the curry is done
some issues with my sister and i have to go
She's a disgusting piece of shit.
LOL. You're the best le laaa~
*More Hugs*

yay ADM FOC group 8!
yay 2D animation Davide's class!
yay FDN Group 5!

Photos HERE
Credits to jerms

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Labels: birthday, friends, happy, sweet

Birthday Celebration Schedule

22mar\sat\Dinner\Zus
23mar\sun\Dinner\Hes, Bel, ww, Mindy, Jan & Manda
26mar\wed\Lunch\Jerome
26mar\wed\Dinner\Hester
26mar\wed\Supper\Amination peeps
28mar\fri\Dinner\Alan, Sam & Kh
29mar\sat\Dinner\Sh, Wen, Silly, Yiru & Vids
30mar\sun\Dinner\Yang & Jee

Labels: birthday, happy

The hug was, comforting
And it was a hug that came when i needed it.

but i can only feel your bones leh
eat more lehs.

I've been crazy(wacky).
And you're probably one of the few who have seen this side of me.
But that's because it's been comfortable with you around,
that I need not care about anything and everything
and just be me.
And I know no matter what,
you'll be there to pat me on the head (like a dog)
Thank yous thank yous. lol

----

i seriously seriously dun feel like going school.

----
"thanks jia qi
it's just nice to hang the night out with someone like you
haha
knowing you're like less than 15 mins of slow walking
and 5 mins of running
away
good night
(:"

I didn't realise that I too have someone 5 minutes away from me now.
;D

Labels: friends, happy

----jon
you? angel?
pui pui pui pui pui. lols
I shoved you aside but you didn't leave
and came back embracing me beneath your wings.
Thank you angel.

----vids
URGENT
hugs and kisses required.
lols. i want that tagg. >..<

----ter
cheer up girl (:
I'm not too sure if i can do anything
but i've got plenty of big hugs i can give you.

Labels: friends, happy, sweet

The pink aura is a mockery.
Laughing at me from afar.

The necklace broke.
I tried to salvage it by grabbing on tightly to the last few beads.
But when I open my hands to look at the beads,
they became fresh blood that stains the skin.
Fresh red blood that I couldn't hold.
Not anymore.
I dropped the remaining beads frantically
allowing the black crystals to scatter the dirty floor.

It wasn't a misfortune.
I had an answer, finally.
And I had a reason, to move on,
An excuse, to let go,
finally.

When I was home,
I packed everything related to you in a box.
Including your childish smiles.
Including the love I had
And shelved the box away in a corner.
9th march 2008.

Happy Birthday Silly, happy birthday Marcus,
Happy birthday,
shelved love.

----
hellos.
I'm sorry I lied.
I'm sorry I gave another excuse.
I'm sorry I tried to fool you.
I needn't need to I know, but I guess I'm just so used to it.
Lying.
Selective disclosure.

I'm sorry if I made you worry.
I 'm sorry I didn't pick up your call.
It's just that I've reached a point where tears could no longer take the pain away.
I cried. But the pain is still as haunting.
Then it's just fatigue. Useless fatigue.
And to a point where no, it's no longer healthy at all.

----

p.s. 10th march onwards,
I will be very busy with school work
I want to be very busy with school work.

Labels: emotional, end, happy, sad

You're like film noir to me.
There's only black, whites
and occasional tint of grays.

There is no colour.
No hues, no shades of the autumn, spring or summer.
Yet like all film noir,
you have the strongest power to storytelling.

Sitting on benches in the early morning
saying hello to random people was a bliss.
Looking at the lime-green grassfield was a bliss.
Framing the sun as petals of red gathered around it was a bliss.
And I appreciate these little things like this in life.

Labels: friends, happy, life, random

I looked at her 2 ponytails,
the red bruise on her knee
then into her eyes.

She looked back,
with the slightest sign of confusion

I touched my hair swiftly and arranged my fringe,
still keeping the eye contact.
Surprisingly, she mirrored my actions,
Briefly touching her forehead because her fringe is tied tightly into the ponytails.

In her eyes,
I found comfort.
But I looked away.
When I was back,
She's still there,
but now, she's more certain then before.

I found comfort in her eyes, but I looked away.
Why did I look away?
Children has the most magnificent power of love
and they can look into your eyes for longest time.
And as we grow older,
we became more and more afraid of eye contacts.
Perhaps we lost some confidence.
Perhaps we became cynical about life.

Researches show that eye contact builds affection.
I'm not sure if it proves anything,
but at the end of the 30 minutes train ride,
I wanted to embrace her in my arms and kiss her bruised knee.

Labels: happy, life

People I'm grateful for
Parents
Dad for doting on me and Mommy for teaching me a lot of things.
I always say that I don't miss you guys but I often cry when I receive your emails.
I always grumble how anyone can leave their children in another country but I'm grateful I could take care of myself . And I don't realize until other friends boast on stuffs like they can change a light bulb. And sometimes I do think that it is unfair for me that I have to work while studying, but I realize later that I didn't want when you volunteered to send money back. And I can truly say that I'm living off my own hands now. It's not something all parents so, but it's something I'm happy you did. I'm not a spoilt brat. *winks*

Sister
I don't say it but I do treasure you ok. LOLS. And one main reason why I don't wanna stay in hall is because of you. haha Okay okay I do nag at you a lot (you think I like to nag at you?) but I think you deserved to be nagged. :x But Anyhoos, I can't imagine life without you.

David
My erac ekat. One who's always doing a lot of stuffs to make me smile. One whom I can give up anything just to ensure he's doing okay. The only friend who's generous in saying "I love you" which I myself sometimes wish I have more courage to do so.

Jonathan
The person who wouldn't mind telling me straight in the face that he is a friend who will be there for me because I am worthy. One who doesn't ask for anything but will give everything. One who always say the right things when I most needed. I told him he has magical powers haha. One who always told me I deserve a good man and one who I've promised that he'll be the first to know when I'm attached. And one that makes me realize how fortunate I have been. And I like everything about him. Even when he suans me and nag at me. Feels like my dad la even he's only one year older. But still, I feel loved.

Wenwen
The first person that knows my secret. :) Don't know how, but we did get close on the first time we met (usually not in most of the case) and now it's coming to a 7 year friendship, still close and strong. I've always been jealous of her family - it's like the standard happy family in the dictionaries. (: lols But now I feel loved when she talks about them.

Hester
The person that helped me through my crappy JC life. I remember I didn't like her in the beginning :x HAHA. I'm sure she remembers too. But now she's one crazy friend whom I can do anything and everything with. And one friend who you'll never see me sad or quiet when I'm with her. I always have a lot to tell her and she always have her ways to make me laugh till my jaws hurt. :D

Jimmy
My best online budd. *huge grins*. I've only seen him once in person but he know so much about my life, maybe even more than someone I meet everyday. He might not know the large part of it, but he knows stuffs which very little people know. And monkey monkey thank piggy piggy for being there. For poking me every now and then and disturbing me. For offering to meet me up late at night when I'm not emotionally-okay. (:

Joe
The only person apart from wenshing who can always understand my art. It's funny but sometimes I do think he's a heart and brain that are built in-sync with mine. He understood my feelings and reasons behind every choice, no matter if it's emo or happy. And when we always talk, it's about life in large and in-dept feelings about love and beauty which I can never talk to anyone else. He's like a source of wealth that truly touches my heart. And I love his films too. I love his works. And I love long late night conversations with him that always sets me thinking.

Wenshing
My favourite lecturer. My favourite even when everyone is talking bad about her behind her back. But she gave me courage. She let me know that whatever I was thinking is important even though no one cares about it. It is crucial in the journey not the end-point. It is crucial that I understood myself. It is crucial and I needn't hide behind the shield. Because everyone is the same, they have their strength and weaknesses. But I didn't get a chance to say bye before she left the school. Something I kinda blame myself for now.

Teresa
Girl girl. Don't know how we got close. LOL. Don't remember talking to her at all when we're at OH committee but somehow we clicked really well after that. She's so cute la I can't resist. :x LOLS. And i thank her so much that she called me more than once after knowing something is not right with me. It meant so much though I didn't pick up. I wasn't in the appropriate situation to talk and I didn't know what to say to her. **hugs**

Labels: family, friends, happy, love

I'm out out that idiotic circle! Woots!
And I have a vision for tomorrow. *winks*
Sounds so 'national day'.



New Policies
1) Optimize time.
2) Always wear a watch, sleep at 11pm, exercise
3) Do the best is everything you do. If you don't want to, don't even start it.

Labels: enthusiastic, future, happy, hope

I woke up with eyes and throat pain and swollen.
The blisters on my foot still hurts.
I sat the the edge of my bed
breathing in heavy air in total darkness
still feeling sore from yesterday.
But I'm loved.
It's a blessing to know I'm loved.

I refused to look at my sister in the morning.
cause my eyes easily damps these days.
I hum my favourite song quietly
and cuddled myself.
I sms-ed johnson and told him that he needn't accompany me.
I need to rush back to school,
it'll make no sense for him to travel that far.
He was sweet enough already, really.
and I know I'm loved.

I was searching frantically in the car park.
I kept clicking on the car remote control.
no reaction.
Walked around and around the car park for the longest time.
There was no sight of the gray vehicle
nor its unlocking sound.
I called sister to check for the car's location.
She says it's exactly where I am.
"Wait. I'll find you later after I finish my stuffs if you still cannot find"
She sounds frustrated.
I sat down beside a car and waited.
A lady asked if I was okay.
I nod and smiled, replying with a "thank you"
She was in her 50s, gray hair and her face was wrinkled
yet she was the most beautiful person on earth.

When sister came.
She apologized.
She forgot that she parked in another car park today.
I said nothing.
Sshe asked if I was ok and
tears start streaming down my cheeks.
"Not okay, I'm not okay"

I wasn't mad at her.
But my body just wasn't functioning well.
I just need someone to embrace me and
assures me that everything is okay.
Even if that person was uncertain too.

Then I remember some things vids said yesterday.
And I was looking through the good night messages he sent.
And I'm reminded again,
I'm loved.
And I remember the "cheer-ups" from ter and jiesheng.
And I remember the random talk with joe
And I remember the people I love.
So yeaps.
(: loves.

Labels: emotional, family, happy, love, sad

For no reason, je came to ntu today
and pops in front of me with this thing
along with the flashing smile of his.
My heart skipped a little
you won't understand how it feels.
Much more than mere happiness.
He really made my day.

Note to dear parsley.
Be strong girl. I don't know what else I can say or do. I don't know how I can help. I just don't the like feeling of seeing you sad. (:

Labels: happy

24th December 2007
It's christmas eve, baby! Spent in a hotel room at Grand Copthorne with zues (including johnson, david, gerald, joey, kianhai, suyun, boonbee, vanessa and yvonne). It was the best Christmas ever. Everyone was high and honestly, I suffered from withdrawal symptoms even though we met up again on boxing day. It's like the post-orientation kinda feeling, you know? I really do love these people.










25th December 2007
Christmas was spent resting, rotting and simply enjoying the slow-paced life with a cuppa latte and snuggling in bed.

26th December 2007
Tanning at Sentosa with Johnson and Boonbee because someone didn't turn up as agreed. She was supposed to go cycle with me as I didn;t wanna tan hurs. I did talk a lot that day. A little too much I think. Met Gerald and had dinner at Fig and Olive at Vivocity. I had some mango sandwhich and it wasn't fantastic but there's compensation made with the company I'm with. In addition, I didn't get darker after the tan. All thanks to the thick layers of sunblock I applied. So in conclusion, it was a splendid day. After that, we traveled down to cck after that for our usual routine of tau-huay. This is round, it was accompanied by chee-kway. Chee-kway is disgusting by the way, so is chee chiong fun.

27th December 2007
Met Bengleong for a iridaoogy test at cityhall. Wen and shirhee accompanied me there. I'm so sorry I was so slow. Then we had subway (my favourite) and met yiru and silli at paragon and had bowls of soup at soupspoon (another of my favourite) before heading down to shirhee's place.













28th December 2007
04s62 gathering! We met at settlers at holland village and had hours of fun with taboo and another-game-which- forgot-the-name. I wasn't very pleased with the service there. And I've already listed it under my "condemned-list". But overall was great. And I got myself a cuppa warm milk from coffee bean before getting myself a free ride home from hester and her boyfriend. First time in a car drove by her. And if you're asking, yes, I am still alive.

29th December 2007
Another day of nothingness. Happy belated birthday Joey. You're the nicest guy ever and I can never imagine my life without you (thanks for being my street directory all these while.) loves.

30th December 2007
This is the day. I met up with xiuming (aka siew mai aka heather aka xiu xiu) and got my first DSLR - D400 Canon. More updates and more pictures from this camera soon. For now, it's coffee prince and pushing daisies from tudou.com

Labels: camera, christmas, fun, happy, sajc, sisters, zufamily

Labels: happy, motivational

幸福。我很幸福。
不要再想要求设么了
要敞开心房
朋友关心对方
朋友帮助对方
是平常。是温暖。
要学着让爱你的人暖暖冰冷的心

Labels: happy, life, love