To be in love is merely to be
In a state of perpetual anesthesia:
To mistake an ordinary young man for a Greek god
Or an ordinary young woman for a goddess.
~ by H.L. Mencken

I have loved to the point of madness;
That which is called madness,
That which to me,
Is the only sensible way to love.
~ by F. Sagan

Love asks me no questions, And gives me endless support.
~ by Willam Shakespeare

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.
~ by Albert Einstein

If love is the answer, could you rephrase the question?
~ by Lily Tomlin~

I love you
Not only for what you are
But for what I am
When I am with you
~ by Roy Croft

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I've been researching. What am I thinking? These little kids. These little children who're barely 13. They're thinking about innocence. They're hoping innocence will stay. Innocence, it's a brilliant thing, And they're not supposed to be thinking bout losing innocence cause that's what they should have naturally. But now the fact that they're doubting themselves makes me doubt them even more. What was I doing when I was 13?

Well I don't wish to sound old, but I realized I'm not any older. (by saying this, I know you'd relate me to some 40 year old auntie) Well, they're doing things I've been doing. I'm getting a little afraid of these kids. Oh well, I should stop calling them kids. I'll leave it hanging for now, will conclude on Tuesday, after presentation.

p.s. some of them are putting so much make up that I'll never believe they're only 13.

p.s. i have to admit. I am very very very jealous of the sota kids. I wish I can be a sota-ian too. o.o

And anways, random, the schools are using videos like this on youtube to teach photosynthesis these days,


kinda cute if you ask me

Labels: random, school

My name.
I'm not very used to my friends calling me Jackie.
Jackie. Wacky Boggie.
because it's a name, with no value.
It's a name which resembles my name.
It's a name for my blond lecturers.
It's a name for employers to remember me.
It's a name, for new friends to remember me.
And I only introduced jackie when someone can't pronounce my name.

And because of this, whenever someone calls me that,
I switch to a very corporate mode.
School. Work.
It just feels weird,
especially when a friend I know for a very long time calls me that.
Especially someone I'm very closed to.
Sometimes, I get embarrassed.
Sometimes, It feels terrible.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm being mocked at.
Sometimes I feel it's not me.

Maybe I'm just not used to it.
Not used to my own name.

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note.
sometimes, I feel very lost.
It feels a little out of place when I can't make friends with some leos and gemini.
i can clique well with them.
Rights? No?
Well, I am supposed to.
I should be able to.
We should be best friends.
But some, no matter how hard, we're just there.
stagnant a superficial level.

maybe I'm not very aries.
At least a couple of people have told me that.
Or maybe I am, in some areas.
Not in others.
Not very pisces too rights?
And I don't really trust the horoscope readings at the back of magazines.
there's nothing to fall back on.

I recall Lauren telling me
"You don't feel aries, but you happen to be one."
It's this feeling when you're first day in school
And you can't find your class.
Except maybe,
my first day lasts very long.

I miss sitting behind Lauren.
Very much.

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I think.
I've created a sting.
A wall
Something you're afraid to cross.
I appear to be a freak.
sensitive freak we once talked about
someone you're afraid of
cause i went mad once
and.
it's just.
*silence*

Labels: random

The awkward photo
I always don't know where to lean towards to.


(Why did the vertical photo become horizontal after uploading? o.o)

I was watching the video again.
WAH i am so so irritated by myself.
LOL. i don't like my own voice hurs.
how can you all stand me hurs?
cannot cannot
I need to hire a detective to document on myself
and monitor my behavior.

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sat celebrated birthday yang & jee at HRC
Serving was the size for the cows.
We're back to the silly old days where
we sit at the last roll of the LT during choir sessions.

Afternoon was with sisters.
Things went very behind time and
nothing was according to planned
(there was no plans, is there?)
But it was perfect.
Though they were much smarter
and noticed I tried to pay.
It's the worst idea to sit right in front of the cashier rights?
idiot.

Staying in toilet to wait for instructions
Spaghettis, Pizza, Finger-foods
Coincidentally seeing aloy
Lemon Cheesecake
Agnes B & Eclat D'Arpege
"Mission" at borders - It was such a thrill (:
"Man"-hunting at Harrys
Alcohol, Music and cheap thrill:
match-making session at the next table with
Xu-Chun-Mei-Old-English-teacher
in revealing bare-back red dress.

Next up, Bintan/Bangkok/Redang trip?

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To my other half, another qiqi.
I don't know if I'm the best person,
but I wanna give you a big big hug. ;D
I'll be around if you need me to.

Labels: mediacorp, random

06thirtyam
I spent 10 hours overnight in the darkroom to finish 9 prints
I realise most prints turned yellow due to exhausted fixer
I drove home so sister could use the car
I almost knock into a bus
I fell asleep at the traffic junction

11thirtyam
I forgot to charge hp before leaving the house
I forgot to bring ezlink
I forgot to bring to-buy list
I boarded the wrong bus
I forgot to bring house keys

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Happy birthday Daddy

Labels: random, tired

i have a new favourite supermarket
fairprice finest.
Bukit Timah Plaza.

It's spacious, white, bright, clean and organised.
Items are neatly shelved.
Shelves are up to eye-level.
It's got blueberries and all kinds of berries.
It's got cream and huge selection of cereals.

I still like King Albert Park's coldstorage though.
It's a different kind of like.

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I just realised something,
David is lactose-intolerant,
Jonathan is lactose-intolerant,
so is Evan

Labels: food, random

You're like film noir to me.
There's only black, whites
and occasional tint of grays.

There is no colour.
No hues, no shades of the autumn, spring or summer.
Yet like all film noir,
you have the strongest power to storytelling.

Sitting on benches in the early morning
saying hello to random people was a bliss.
Looking at the lime-green grassfield was a bliss.
Framing the sun as petals of red gathered around it was a bliss.
And I appreciate these little things like this in life.

Labels: friends, happy, life, random

爱一个人是永远的。
七年后无意间在网上看见你的相片
心还是会闷,
还是会想按下滑鼠储存下来。

爱一个人是永远的。
好久好久没见面，
没一起聊天。
但是意外的收到你的简讯时，
我的心却很暖，仿佛上了瘾似的想你。

爱一个人是永远的。
不知道你最近好不好。
不知道你是否有照顾自己身体。
不知道你有没有又因心情不好而喝酒。

爱一个人是永远的。
只是现在不再是心宜的对象
只是家人。
只是朋友。
很久没联络却很想你的朋友。

爱一个人很难
不爱一个人更难。

Labels: emotional, memories, random