02:07am
I am rushing photog essay and my mobile phone lights up.
Message Inbox (1)
"Need anythin to perk up not?"



Sweet Piggy delivered supper in the cold cold night
thankyous thankyous.
;D

Labels: food, friends, sweet, tired

car accident.
car,
knocked into car.
fell asleepa at the junction again.
He's car was dented.

Happy birthday.
First present to myself
a big hole in the pocket.

I think I shall stop driving
till the day I get enough sleep.

Labels: accident, car, tired

06thirtyam
I spent 10 hours overnight in the darkroom to finish 9 prints
I realise most prints turned yellow due to exhausted fixer
I drove home so sister could use the car
I almost knock into a bus
I fell asleep at the traffic junction

11thirtyam
I forgot to charge hp before leaving the house
I forgot to bring ezlink
I forgot to bring to-buy list
I boarded the wrong bus
I forgot to bring house keys

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Happy birthday Daddy

Labels: random, tired

I cooked dinner.
It was supposed to be MY dinner.
Because sister says she's gonna not eat dinner to lose weight.
So I didn;'t prepare hers.
But I happen to cook more.
I could have left it in the fridge for tomorrow.
But I was nice, I offered her.

I was out. jogging.
Tired. Hungry.
When I was back,
I realized she finished everything.
Every single bit.
Dinner was more than one-person's share.
And she didn't breathe a word.
Oh wrong. She did say something.
"You cannot blame me, how am I supposed to know I cannot finish everything."
She didn't offer to cook me something or buy me something.
She just sat in front of her computer screen like I'm vacuum
Absence physically and emotionally.

I have had enough of her dirtiness and unwillingness to clean the house
So I've always been doing it all these while.
I got sick of telling her to keep her things.
Now I just throw her things into her room.
I cleaned the whole house except for her room.
All this, I had enough.
And this happens.

She's always eating what I cook.
Sh hasn't initiated to cook for me even once.
I's always me me me.
It's not cheap to cook as I used all natural ingredients ok.
I bought healthier food products which are more expensive.
I am, quite broke already.
I need to study and work.
And she bloody hell has a stable job.
And she doesnt help but give me more problems.
Seriously, I have had enough staying with her.
I'm gonna go crazy sooner or later.

My sister is a Capricorn.
My ex is a Capricorn.
Someone is a Capricon.
I really have to start believing these analysis.

" Bad Match:
Try to avoid B-types of Cancers or Capricorns. This Cancer asks for constant attention and can be too temperamental for you. You will get sick and tired of these tantrums eventually feel that you want out of this relationship. B-type Capricorns sometimes become too selfish for you and they have the tendency to hurt your feelings verbally and emotionally. "



xx from http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/compatibility.asp

Aries + Capricorn
Fire + Earth = Lava

This really is a pretty tough romantic combination, Aries. The forecast is for an uphill battle! Some astrologers might even say that this is the most unpleasant match in the zodiac! Your ruling planets — Mars and Saturn — are diametrically opposed forces. You’re extroverted, whereas Capricorn is introverted and shy, even sullen at times.

Capricorn is sober, practical, realistic, slow and steady — and a wee bit too conservative for your liking, Aries. They need a carefully mapped out plan for everything in life. ( I don't really agree with this point. Because I'm more of a need-to-plan-everything-kinda-aries) You prefer the thrill of the unknown, and are always excited about where life’s river might take you. ( I do agree with this though. Sometimes I do something totally opposite from what I planned.) These are very different attitudes, you’d have to agree. If you find yourself attracted to a Capricorn, don’t expect them to drop everything, on an impulse, to do something with you. It just won’t happen. Your wild and impulsive moods will give them the heeby-jeebies.

An Aries–Capricorn combination will pull your reins tight, and pretty soon you will be feeling boxed in, like a caged bird with its wings clipped. You’ll be unable to exercise your freedom-loving muscles. From the other side of the picture, your lively and exuberant energy will make traditionalist Capricorn feel as though they’re being whipped into race pace, which they hate — they need everything in their life to move at a slower and more deliberate speed.

However, Capricorns secretly wish they could experience life the way you do, with boundless effervescent energy and optimism.

Saturn, the ruler of Capricorn, is laid up in Aries. This means the stern and sober attitude of that earthy star sign is essentially at odds with you. Capricorn could well put out your fire.

Labels: angry, family, horroscope, sad, tired

Jac has been a little busy.

Labels: adm, digital painting, tired

i always tend to overblow my abilities
and i end up weeping alone in a corner.
thinking and i can do it
but i can't and it does hurt
i still wish someone will love me
and point a finger in my face
tell me how silly i've been

Labels: emotional, tired

Agreed to help the ADM year 2 film students with their shooting.
This is the first day.
Monk's Hill Secondary School, abandoned school.
Supposed to be from 5am to 7pm.
But I work up late and it ended early.
Not much of a shooting was done today.
More of planning.




ally's shooting point - PE store - which looks like a prison


incredibly real fake ipods.
ruru's shooting group



school corridors compound.



i got to act as a random student in aida's film.
All i did was to "start laughing" after "rolling" was shouted.
shux's group's really nice 60s movie posters.
I didnt get the photos but her actors look like they walked out from the history books too.






Dessert Temptations.
A nice restaurant at Railway mall sells really nice desserts and pasta.
Go on. try them






Dentist visit.
Skipped school to go to the dentist.
Cheap thrill.
Wrong. Luxury happiness.
It cost me $56 at Alexandra hospital.
But I love the visit. I love the dentist.
I love it when she looks into my eyes and tell me I have perfectly healthy teeth.

Labels: adm, dentist, desserts, film, french, happy, tired, work, work study scheme

I saw minglong in the canteen today. And his first reaction was "WHOA why do you look so pale!???" After rushing to the toilet and see myself in the mirror, indeed, i have to admit, i look shagged. Damn damn damn cui. Argh, no this must not happen again. I think i need to wear red tomorrow, or hot pink or even luminous yellow. I shall look energetic and bubbly tomorrow!

War today was filed in the "Keep In View" file. Everything needs the dean's nod and unluckily the dean's out of town. So yes, hopefully he replies Deb's email asap. And seriously, i think Deb's fab. I'm looking forward to the turn in my life.

update: i lost the war.

Labels: adm, tired, vis comm

I've been very tired these days.
Sleeping late and having too much to think about.
But I'm surviving all rights. (:






Top: johnson vs bottom: joey

Labels: army, bowling, johnson, tired, zufamily