quotes
Saturday, April 12, 2008 ♥
To be in love is merely to be
In a state of perpetual anesthesia:
To mistake an ordinary young man for a Greek god
Or an ordinary young woman for a goddess.
~ by H.L. Mencken
I have loved to the point of madness;
That which is called madness,
That which to me,
Is the only sensible way to love.
~ by F. Sagan
Love asks me no questions, And gives me endless support.
~ by Willam Shakespeare
Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.
~ by Albert Einstein
If love is the answer, could you rephrase the question?
~ by Lily Tomlin~
I love you
Not only for what you are
But for what I am
When I am with you
~ by Roy Croft
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I've been researching. What am I thinking? These little kids. These little children who're barely 13. They're thinking about innocence. They're hoping innocence will stay. Innocence, it's a brilliant thing, And they're not supposed to be thinking bout losing innocence cause that's what they should have naturally. But now the fact that they're doubting themselves makes me doubt them even more. What was I doing when I was 13?
Well I don't wish to sound old, but I realized I'm not any older. (by saying this, I know you'd relate me to some 40 year old auntie) Well, they're doing things I've been doing. I'm getting a little afraid of these kids. Oh well, I should stop calling them kids. I'll leave it hanging for now, will conclude on Tuesday, after presentation.
p.s. some of them are putting so much make up that I'll never believe they're only 13.
p.s. i have to admit. I am very very very jealous of the sota kids. I wish I can be a sota-ian too. o.o
And anways, random, the schools are using videos like this on youtube to teach photosynthesis these days,
kinda cute if you ask me
:3
Monday, April 07, 2008 ♥
presentation
Friday, April 04, 2008 ♥
Graphic Design Presentation
"the external critics were suprised that you have such strong ideas and they couldn't believe you just transfered major!"
(: worthed my 3 days of sleepless nights.
Will sleep today. I will sleep 12 hours today!
But there's this little sting that astrid's not happy with my non-environmental-friendly idea.
Will improve. You'll be impressed.
*grins*
caught
Wednesday, March 12, 2008 ♥
The corner of her lips twitched
bringing them to a frown.
"yes?" she snapped
Everyone in the room is looking at me now.
I couldn't breathe a word
"You know you don't have much time left. Critique's next week and you're the first in the list.
You have nothing decent to show."
All I could do was stare at her blanking.
Giving a nod or two now and then.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
Jon messaged me.
(You know, I am more assured now that you have some magical powers)
He told me that he hope everything is going the right way for me.
It's not, Jon, it's totally not going the right way.
Every thing is falling apart.
Jon I need you,
and I really do wish you're here with me.
You volunteered to clear my workload for me.
You volunteered to accompany and talk to me.
You even repeated the question thrice.
And reassured me twice that you're going to stay late in school and
I can look for you any time.
but as always I replied "I'm going to be fine"
I am such an idiot right?
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This week
13.03 Asian Art History Presentation
14.03 Graphic Tradition Part II concepts presentation
Next week
17.03 HW111 presentation
19.03 French oral test
19.03 Graphic Design II Individual critique
19.03 Photography critique
blue
Saturday, March 01, 2008 ♥
imgaes via here
The sky is clear.
but I'm lack of sleep.
It was a chilly morning and i stared at my
long to-do list before school starts.
Term breaks are never meant to be breaks
but a week to complete the uncompleted.
missing-in-action
Wednesday, January 30, 2008 ♥
I'm needing more emotional support these days.
From whom? I don't really know.
It's been a perfect example of being lonely around people.
Like there's a lot of people around, but it's still empty there.
It's my own problem I guess.
Start missing some people whom I used to go to when I needed someone.
Start missing people who listens to me crying over the phone.
Start missing people who have seen the worst days I've been through.
Start missing people who I don't really talk to that much these days.
Start missing people who allows me to keep dreaming without reminding me of the reality.
Start missing people who would tell me I'm the best and I can do anything.
Start missing people who don't exist at all.
I'm a little scared of life these days
No I'm not depressed.
No worries people, I'm fine.
Just a little disappointed with myself and life thus far
Not really.
Actually I'm a little confused.
I think I need another session of breaking down and crying all night.
maybe with a company this time round?
But people who offered the help are always the wrong people.
Not wrong as in I don't need them but just morally wrong.
And I have no someone whom I can always go to, no matter what.
And people always ask what's wrong what's wrong.
but the fact is I don't have the answer too.
Perhaps it's the side effects of falling from the high end.
Perhaps it's just expectations not met.
Perhaps it's just the nightmares I have at night and no one but 4 walls that enclose me.
And I'm actually jealous of yl who could actually throw everything aside and give herself a little break to pamper herself.
yes i refer to it as pamper.
Some times some things, only the person could help himself.
I'm sure she'll walk out from it soon,
she just needs some time,
I hope she won't take long.
It takes some courage to neglect everything.
And I worry about attendance in school when i am tempted to go MIA.
What a loser. Rj says I'm different cause at least I don't go MIA.
Now it sounds like a joke doesn't it?
new chapter begins
Thursday, January 17, 2008 ♥
The first week of school was
Hectic.
Frankly, I'm not copping with it that well.
And if you see me online,
you'll always receive the (autoreply) message
"Busy doing work. Not at computer right now"
There's 2 VIS presentations tomorrow and
I've completed none.
I've just started on one this morning though.
gosh.
I need to plan my time more wisely.
BS801
Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ♥
Ye I kow everyone says it's the easiest module ever.
Yes I thought so too.
Therefore I only allocated 24 hours to it (including sleep).
And now I get what I deserve.
A whole good load of almost 10 questions on virus
when I haven't even seen the virus lecture slides at all.
And only a couple of questions on translation transcription when i spent so much time on it.
And they're freaking easy quesntion which everyone should know the answer.
oh golly great. With the help of the bell-curve, I'll score even worst.
Expected grade: C
And i forgot to charge my freakin bluebooth player.
How am II supposed to survive through the night?
Hmmm. Hungry. Who can dinner with me?
Somewhere far far away?
Jst for a while.
Anyways, came across this photographer's site
http://lightedpixels.com/
Gosh. you know some times there's just things that make you wanna live a little longer no matter where you are, what you are feeling, or what you're goning throught.
This is one of them.
Depeche Mode - Somebody
I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
And in a place like this
I'll get away with it
the routine.
Sunday, November 04, 2007 ♥
I'm getting used to the routine.
Getting up at 5am
Leaving the house for school at 5:30.
Sometimes I'll drive.
Sometimes I don't
If I do, I'll bring along my laptop
If I don't I'll not bring a lot of stuffs.
If I do, I'll make myself instant coffee in school.
If I don't, I'll get some coffee at the interchange.
I had a realisation this morning,
that my coffee has no aroma at all.
It's perhaps why it taste so sucky too.
Can't expect much from cheap coffees.
It has become a habit to speed. to drive at at least a hundred.
Today I got a little too adventurous and hit 140.
It doesn't feel too fast until things start flying over when I have a sharp turn.
It's probably the empty roads,
or the dark and damp atmostphere.
Maybe it's just me not paying attention,
allowing my thoughts to wander
or maybe it's just class 95 without a DJ.
There's no Glenn. There's no FD. There's no one.
Getting up at 5am
Leaving the house for school at 5:30.
Sometimes I'll drive.
Sometimes I don't
If I do, I'll bring along my laptop
If I don't I'll not bring a lot of stuffs.
If I do, I'll make myself instant coffee in school.
If I don't, I'll get some coffee at the interchange.
I had a realisation this morning,
that my coffee has no aroma at all.
It's perhaps why it taste so sucky too.
Can't expect much from cheap coffees.
It has become a habit to speed. to drive at at least a hundred.
Today I got a little too adventurous and hit 140.
It doesn't feel too fast until things start flying over when I have a sharp turn.
It's probably the empty roads,
or the dark and damp atmostphere.
Maybe it's just me not paying attention,
allowing my thoughts to wander
or maybe it's just class 95 without a DJ.
There's no Glenn. There's no FD. There's no one.
This morning, I dont know why
but i needed someone to be with me.
quite urgently.
A someone to give me that smile of assurance before i head school
But what's to reassure about.
And who's to be available at this wee hour.
I had another understanging about friends last night.
I talked to wen and jon when i needed them
They were busy with revision but they insisted I should say.
They listened.
Said heart-warming things that made everything turn on the right track again
miraculously.
It's way more effective than keyboard, drawing, cooking or even music theraphy.
It's way better than milk, banana or chocolate theraphy.
When you open out your hearts, you realise there's a lot of people who care,
sometimes someone you dont expect.
And even though your problems are nonsensical or illogical according to jon,
he'll make you feel like any problem's just too sutpid for you exhaust time brooding over.
It has become a habit to be the first car in the adm carpark
It has become a habit to park at the exact same lot.
It has become a habit to forgot to turn the rear view mirrors in
This morning. I woke up at 3 instead.
It was a little different, I didn't have a hard time to get myself up.
Made some pasta.
Tried on the apron from jing
Cleared the laundry
and watched some morning tv before heading for school.
I parked my car. Breeze through the empty rooms at B1
There isn't much people in adm today.
Quite a nice surprise in this cold morning.
It's prolly because it's a sunday, most people some on saturdays.
But there's a few hardworking souls who stayed thru the night.
I've grown to love to work on sundays.
Partially because of the slightly empty rooms.
I have this fear for crowds of people who I know.
They prolly have to work like chinese ancient handscrolls;
reviewing to me few by few, batch by batch.
And this morning,
I have my almond nuts.
And hot coffee.
It feels a little too good to be true.
But there's no one.
I'll get over that.
worst day of all
Friday, September 21, 2007 ♥
- My thumbdrive had error and needs formatting in school when it works perfectly fine at home. And my prof look as me as though i'm this trouble kid trying to get away with this silly nonsense when the fact is i did do the research.
- My prof thinks my idea sucks and im being too ambitious and non-realistic. I think he just didn't like me.
- I broke my shoe at 10:30am and I have meeting till late in the night today.
- I woke up late for school.
- And most importantly, I forgot to bring my handphone which i desperately need. I need to collect keys for the meeint tonight. Gosh, i'm a terrible secretary. Aww how how how?