I'm getting used to the routine.
Getting up at 5am
Leaving the house for school at 5:30.
Sometimes I'll drive.
Sometimes I don't
If I do, I'll bring along my laptop
If I don't I'll not bring a lot of stuffs.
If I do, I'll make myself instant coffee in school.
If I don't, I'll get some coffee at the interchange.

I had a realisation this morning,
that my coffee has no aroma at all.
It's perhaps why it taste so sucky too.
Can't expect much from cheap coffees.

It has become a habit to speed. to drive at at least a hundred.
Today I got a little too adventurous and hit 140.
It doesn't feel too fast until things start flying over when I have a sharp turn.
It's probably the empty roads,
or the dark and damp atmostphere.
Maybe it's just me not paying attention,
allowing my thoughts to wander
or maybe it's just class 95 without a DJ.
There's no Glenn. There's no FD. There's no one.

This morning, I dont know why
but i needed someone to be with me.
quite urgently.
A someone to give me that smile of assurance before i head school
But what's to reassure about.
And who's to be available at this wee hour.

I had another understanging about friends last night.
I talked to wen and jon when i needed them
They were busy with revision but they insisted I should say.
They listened.
Said heart-warming things that made everything turn on the right track again
miraculously.
It's way more effective than keyboard, drawing, cooking or even music theraphy.
It's way better than milk, banana or chocolate theraphy.
When you open out your hearts, you realise there's a lot of people who care,
sometimes someone you dont expect.
And even though your problems are nonsensical or illogical according to jon,
he'll make you feel like any problem's just too sutpid for you exhaust time brooding over.

It has become a habit to be the first car in the adm carpark
It has become a habit to park at the exact same lot.
It has become a habit to forgot to turn the rear view mirrors in

This morning. I woke up at 3 instead.
It was a little different, I didn't have a hard time to get myself up.
Made some pasta.
Tried on the apron from jing
Cleared the laundry
and watched some morning tv before heading for school.

I parked my car. Breeze through the empty rooms at B1
There isn't much people in adm today.
Quite a nice surprise in this cold morning.
It's prolly because it's a sunday, most people some on saturdays.
But there's a few hardworking souls who stayed thru the night.
I've grown to love to work on sundays.
Partially because of the slightly empty rooms.
I have this fear for crowds of people who I know.
They prolly have to work like chinese ancient handscrolls;
reviewing to me few by few, batch by batch.

And this morning,
I have my almond nuts.
And hot coffee.
It feels a little too good to be true.
But there's no one.
I'll get over that.