Oh no. I realise I really prefer matured old man. LOLS. Maybe not old, I like men with clear visions in mind of what they want and know they're in control. Like I freaking cannot stand guys who whines and me and tell me how low confidence they are. I mean, they can be uncertain of course. but list out to me the choices and maybe I can help in any way possible. Tell me what you've done and what you're unsure of doing. Not whine and whine and doesn't even know what options he have. And especially after I encouraged them, they keep bugging me with "I cannot do it I cannot do it". Oh maybe they're just like you know humble. But sometimes I do that you know, like says stuff like "die die die, fail fail fail". But I don't go ON AND ON about how dead I am. I grumble a little and I stop. I might be worried but I dont keep repeating the same words to anyone. ANd especially If you expressed no interest in listening to me, I freaking hell stop. Man, some people really dont get body language. Arghs, cannot stand them.

I mean seriously, get a dream. Advance towards it. Have fun on the way of course. But at least know what you want? Okay maybe I'm being too harsh here. According to jon, some people just wanna whine and have someone too listen to and talk crap when they have totally clear ideas behind the back of their minds on what to do next. They just need to let it out a bit sometimes. ok. Arguement valid. But it's only valid when you dont do it so often.

Actually I can tolerate some people. Hmm... Depending on who it is. I realise I can tolerate some people. But Oh man, I can't really tolerate some childish guys. I mean, I AM childish enough. So i'm like the benchmark, anyone goes below will be categorized under oh-my-god-i-cant-stand-you. But then again, I realise I'm pretty matured when I'm with some peeps and get really crazy and kiddy when I'm with others. Perfectly normal, so maybe this doesn't apply to everyone. But freaking. I admit I am attracted to office man more than a beach boy (but an office boy who beaches sounds good). And boy I realise have a lot of kiddy guy friends around me. HAHA but I do enjoy their company, like a little baby brother you know? But sometimes I get really irritated when I need to encourage and pacify him. And I suddenly have to become more matured to cater to them. Oh this reminds me of my kiddy elder sister who makes me feel much older. o.o Oh wells, this is getting out of topic. The main point is, it irritates me . And suddenly I realise I've grown out of the using baby names and sometimes people who use them irritates me.

And oh I'm learning to stop listening that much and start scolding these people who're wasting their lives moaning. I'm learning to speak my mind. And if you hurt me, I'll freaking kick your butt and tell you in your face that you suck. I wont go home and cry anymore. If I need to cry, I'll freaking cry right there at that moment. Somehow I realize I lack friends whom i can talk about my deep emotions with or maybe the way we looked at life. More in-depth conversations on people and life. Like I can only name a few right now. Some, just don't listen. Some, just scares me.

Oh rights, anyways, just need to vent my anger a bit and produced an entry of random and totally incoherent thoughts.
2 more papers to go next week. I need to bury myself in books.

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